The Cult I Left Behind
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Welcome to Our Podcast
Hi! We're Amanda and Kyle, a newly-ish married couple. The Cult I Left Behind covers Amanda’s
upbringing in the IBLP cult of Duggar infamy - a story Kyle learns about along with listeners. Through sometimes humorous,
sometimes heartbreaking stories, we explore the cult’s ideology,
the strange rules that surrounded Amanda’s childhood, and the abuse she endured before leaving the cult. Through it all, we talk about what it takes to break
free from a cult and what gets left behind.
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Popular Episodes
76 - Finding Peace in Denmark: A Journey from High-Control to True Relaxation
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75 - How to Deconstruct
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74 - Big Changes, Listener Q&A, and Cult Realities
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73 - Growing Up in IBLP: A Male Survivor’s Perspective on Trauma and Healing
In this episode, we sit down with Nate, an IBLP/ATI cult survivor and trauma sur...
72 - Protecting Kids from Sexual Abuse: What Every Parent Should Know
When we think about keeping kids safe from predators, we often imagine dangers l...
71 - Your Stories, Our Answers: Family Rejection, Advocacy, and Healing
In this episode, Amanda and Kyle tackle listener questions surrounding the impac...
70 - A Conversation with Cult Survivor and Author Daniella Mestyanek Young
What happens when you escape a world built on control, fear, and secrecy? How do...
69 - Sex, Healing, and Breaking Generational Cycles
In this episode, Amanda and Kyle are joined by Marian, a sexual health and pleas...
68 - Wrapping Up & Moving Forward
Amanda and Kyle reflect on an incredible year of connection and growth and share...
From Our Listeners...
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I Love the Interaction
It's great to hear Kyle's stunned comments and laughter at
the ridiculousness throughout. Lol 😂
Emily S.
Gives Me Hope
Hearing this episode, hearing the lessons you have learned and share, gives hope for healing. My favorite piece of advice “lean into the love that’s there." Thanks for being open and honest!Sarah G.
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Like Listening to My Friend
Loved to hear the story. Clear to understand.
Melody W.
I Am So Proud of You Two
Thank you for this podcast. You have helped me in so many ways and I am forever grateful for your podcast and how you so clearly and at many times humorously tackle some really big topics with grace and respect. Best wishes from New Zealand.Aroha W.
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Apple Podcasts Reviews
Literally life changing
Once I started listening, I fell hard for this podcast. It’s very different from any of the other podcasts I listen to. Amanda’s triumph over the evil of her bio parents and the cult… I have no words. Thank you for sharing your story with the world. I wanted to let y'all know that the episode where you spoke with the ...
Read MorePerfect in every way like Mary Poppins
Suggested by another platform because I like life after mlm. Makes my commute up in the Utah mountains bearable and interesting. Also.helps growing up as a born again Christian and unpacking that baggage
Really enjoy podcast but…
I really love the content, I’m fascinated by all things cults and IBLP. I’m proud of A for sharing her stories and traumas, she’s overcome so much! My only complaint (if you can call it that) is that A interrupts and talks over her husband a lot.
